Yeah I think about this a lot tbh. Turns out I'm not a very good developer, probably average on a wider scale, maybe a bit below that and certainly bottom teir

Yeah I think about this a lot tbh. Turns out I'm not a very good developer, probably average on a wider scale, maybe a bit below that and certainly bottom teir when it comes to highly tech minded contexts, such as here on HN. And frankly, I dont care for much of it at all. I dont hate programming i guess, and while I rank myself poorly as a developer, I'd same I'm ok as a hacker, meaning I can dig my heels into a problem I'm interesed in and "hack together a solution" from nothin, mostly for the sale of wanting to do it. Its very rare that I'm exposed to a problem that I can get engaged in, but when I do the spark returns. OTOH no idea what else I could reasonably do. Most careers are going to be plauged by the reasons that turn me off of programming. There's a handful of things that interest me, but all stuff that is out of reach because of education reasons and I make too much money to afford going back to school (but to little to self fund). Its also hard to tell where my intellectual ceiling is and if I'd even be able to work on some of those things anyway.