i'm not sure what you mean by the desire/urge to create is artifical, in the sense of societal demands or not, and it can be a big topic... so i'll address some

i'm not sure what you mean by the desire/urge to create is artifical, in the sense of societal demands or not, and it can be a big topic... so i'll address something else and we can revisit that if you'd like. i think it's great you've had such drive to produce work, for whatever reasoning it came from. i think you're at a point where you would like it to mean something to you, or you want your work efforts to amount to something, so perhaps you need to figure out how to satisfy that. if you are interested in the "process of creating work", maybe you need to find a new topic to create writings on, or maybe you can reflect on past work and reiterate on it with some goals in mind (catering to another kind of audience, updating info/processes, adding more research to the work, etc). i'm not too sure where your interests lie other than writing, so it's hard to make further suggestions right now.