That you're posting it on HN means that you wish for some response from fellow hackers. Whatever you feel, listen to the advice given here. We're acting as you

That you're posting it on HN means that you wish for some response from fellow hackers. Whatever you feel, listen to the advice given here. We're acting as your proxy conscience - your 'inner voice'. Don't act on your feelings. Talk to a friend, or a professional. Or even post more here - we're listening!