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After reading this I had to do a quick self-assessment. For the last few years or so (I'm 33, also a software engineer) I've noticed a pretty big decline in my

After reading this I had to do a quick self-assessment. For the last few years or so (I'm 33, also a software engineer) I've noticed a pretty big decline in my mental state. I can't focus. I immediately forget what I just looked at, read or did. I completely zone out when people talk to me. I am just not present in any situation. What is strange is that I can actually notice it, not in real-time however. It's been worrying me for the last few months so much so that I started meditating which I've never done before. My wife mentioned seeing a therapist because she thought maybe I was depressed so I scheduled an appointment but it's been rescheduled due to the virus. I keep hearing about other programmers experiencing similar issues (yourself included) and I wonder if the nature of what we do somehow damages our brain in some capacity and we just don't know it yet. Obviously Lee's case is different but it's certainly scary. I hope he doesn't suffer as well.

empath75 6y ago
Honestly that just sounds like a mix of ADHD and depression. I wouldn’t worry about it too much.
- astrange 6y ago
  That sounds like something to worry about the appropriate amount. Mostly by going to a doctor and getting a physical.
celestialcheese 6y ago
This is very similar to my situation, although I'm a bit younger. I've tried therapy and she recommending getting back on ADHD medication and experimenting with that. Haven't gone ahead with it.
novok 6y ago
Also how is your sleep. 6hrs/day in your 20s is different than 6hrs/day in your 30s.
- f2000 6y ago
  I’d second this. Check you sleep. #hours. Get a sleep study, make sure you don’t have sleep apnea. Also review your diet and any substances you consume. In my case it was sleep apnea in my 40s that took me from “coding like a m’fing riot” to barely able to concentrate long enough to code a for loop. good luck.
elamje 6y ago
I don’t have the same issue with focus, etc. but I’m a couple years into my software career and have noticed a drastic shift in my cognitive abilities. Not negative per say, but it’s clear that being focused and working on a logic puzzle all day is changing how my brain is wired. You can imagine that our brain, after years of programming, starts to find shortcuts and such to make the tasks easier, but I find it’s coming at the expense of my ability to clearly communicate ideas and thoughts to others. I don’t like it, and I’m very curious if other people experience this.
- distances 6y ago
  I've always felt I have to be extra careful about explaining/communicating, as the direct translation of my thought process doesn't deliver. I don't mind it much; I feel it's just a quirk I have to be aware of. On the other hand, after a long and tiring coding session just talking normal stuff gets cumbersome but that, I figure, is just tiredness and passes soon enough.
rubicon33 6y ago
I'm 33 also. I'm starting to form a theory that it could be dopamine depletion. [1] [1] https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2791340/ https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2791340/
- sfteus 6y ago
  Anecdotal, but having the same in early 30s. Was diagnosed with ADHD, low-dose long-form Adderall has basically reversed my symptoms, which from my understanding involves dopamine or dopamine receptors. Sleeping better and exercise are both also good boosts.
- gscott 6y ago
  Check your blood sugar and blood pressure. That is what got me, for a long time I had a lot of brain fog and just was operating at around 50% which was enough to get me by but once those issues were resolved I feel fine now.
  - rubicon33 6y ago
    Blood pressure has been tested, and is normal (120/70). I'd be surprised if I had a blood sugar problem. No family history of Type-1 diabetes. I'm thin/muscular. Workout regularly (lift+run). I suppose it's possible, but I would be surprised. Human body is a weird thing.
- cheeko1234 6y ago
  Can you elaborate on the theory? I tried reading the article but can't make too much sense of it.
  - rubicon33 6y ago
    They studied motivation & effort in rats, essentially asking the question: "What makes you work hard for a big (but delayed) reward, when you could just take the easy (but smaller) reward?" I think of my current state as, always seeking the easy reward. I utterly lack the motivation, energy, and focus, to pursue prolonged difficult tasks (like good programming takes). When you think about it, we (humans) face this question every day. Why do you get up, and work on hard problems, when you could just sit and watch YouTube? There's got to be something motivating you to sit down, and do the work. What they found in the study is that if they blocked D1 and D2 receptors, the rats stopped working for the big reward. They would just sit there, and take the small reward. Or, they'd do nothing at all. They became lazy, unmotivated, blobs. If they supplemented with D-Amphetamine they were able to reverse the effect. Thereby demonstrating, that it's actually the failure to activate D1 and D2 receptors that causes rats to give up on hard work. DOPAMINE is responsible for activating these receptors, and it's these receptors that give you the "OOMF" to get up, and get shit done. Historically dopamine is seen as the "reward" but that's not really the case. Dopamine is the fuel. It's the catalyst. It's the "mental energy" that gets you off your ass. So my theory is that, in myself, something is either blocking D1 and D2 receptors... or I've "used up" my dopamine reserves in the brain my continually slamming them with YouTube, gaming, and general computer use. My brain now looks for this high everywhere. Reading a book stands no chance, as it doesn't release anywhere near the dopamine of clicking through YouTube or playing video games. My baseline is fucked, essentially. So, I am going to begin the hard work of reseting this baseline... No YouTube, no Games. Will report back in a few months.
abandonliberty 6y ago
Welcome to maturing. Most people I've talked to have noticed things. The positive part is that experience counts for something.
nabnob 6y ago
Hmm, I've experienced the same thing. My hunch is that this is related to spending long periods of time in front of a computer, with internet addiction gradually making my ability to focus worse and worse. I honestly think I was better at reading difficult material when I was a teenager. I think you just have to retrain your brain to focus in other ways - exercise is shown to improve learning and brain function. There's definitely a relationship between physical health and mental health, and I'm guessing that physical health is an area that a lot of us software devs are neglecting.
stef25 6y ago
I have similar problems. Some of it might be because of underlying issues we'll probably never learn about it, but some of it is also social media and information overload. There's so much shit bombarding us every day, all engineered to provide a dopamine fix and I 100% believe it's affecting our brains.
- cmauniada 6y ago
  This. I agree with. I have to force myself to only check my phone at certain times, and ensure that I don't use it too often. Ever since I have enabled night mode on my iPhone I find myself less distracted and getting better sleep. I also put apps like instagram, snapchat inside folders on a different page so they are always out of my sight.

empath75 6y ago

Honestly that just sounds like a mix of ADHD and depression. I wouldn’t worry about it too much.

astrange 6y ago
That sounds like something to worry about the appropriate amount. Mostly by going to a doctor and getting a physical.

celestialcheese 6y ago

This is very similar to my situation, although I'm a bit younger. I've tried therapy and she recommending getting back on ADHD medication and experimenting with that. Haven't gone ahead with it.

novok 6y ago

Also how is your sleep. 6hrs/day in your 20s is different than 6hrs/day in your 30s.

f2000 6y ago
I’d second this. Check you sleep. #hours. Get a sleep study, make sure you don’t have sleep apnea. Also review your diet and any substances you consume. In my case it was sleep apnea in my 40s that took me from “coding like a m’fing riot” to barely able to concentrate long enough to code a for loop. good luck.

elamje 6y ago

I don’t have the same issue with focus, etc. but I’m a couple years into my software career and have noticed a drastic shift in my cognitive abilities. Not negative per say, but it’s clear that being focused and working on a logic puzzle all day is changing how my brain is wired. You can imagine that our brain, after years of programming, starts to find shortcuts and such to make the tasks easier, but I find it’s coming at the expense of my ability to clearly communicate ideas and thoughts to others. I don’t like it, and I’m very curious if other people experience this.

distances 6y ago
I've always felt I have to be extra careful about explaining/communicating, as the direct translation of my thought process doesn't deliver. I don't mind it much; I feel it's just a quirk I have to be aware of. On the other hand, after a long and tiring coding session just talking normal stuff gets cumbersome but that, I figure, is just tiredness and passes soon enough.

rubicon33 6y ago

I'm 33 also. I'm starting to form a theory that it could be dopamine depletion. [1] [1] https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2791340/ https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2791340/

sfteus 6y ago
Anecdotal, but having the same in early 30s. Was diagnosed with ADHD, low-dose long-form Adderall has basically reversed my symptoms, which from my understanding involves dopamine or dopamine receptors. Sleeping better and exercise are both also good boosts.
gscott 6y ago
Check your blood sugar and blood pressure. That is what got me, for a long time I had a lot of brain fog and just was operating at around 50% which was enough to get me by but once those issues were resolved I feel fine now.
- rubicon33 6y ago
  Blood pressure has been tested, and is normal (120/70). I'd be surprised if I had a blood sugar problem. No family history of Type-1 diabetes. I'm thin/muscular. Workout regularly (lift+run). I suppose it's possible, but I would be surprised. Human body is a weird thing.
cheeko1234 6y ago
Can you elaborate on the theory? I tried reading the article but can't make too much sense of it.
- rubicon33 6y ago
  They studied motivation & effort in rats, essentially asking the question: "What makes you work hard for a big (but delayed) reward, when you could just take the easy (but smaller) reward?" I think of my current state as, always seeking the easy reward. I utterly lack the motivation, energy, and focus, to pursue prolonged difficult tasks (like good programming takes). When you think about it, we (humans) face this question every day. Why do you get up, and work on hard problems, when you could just sit and watch YouTube? There's got to be something motivating you to sit down, and do the work. What they found in the study is that if they blocked D1 and D2 receptors, the rats stopped working for the big reward. They would just sit there, and take the small reward. Or, they'd do nothing at all. They became lazy, unmotivated, blobs. If they supplemented with D-Amphetamine they were able to reverse the effect. Thereby demonstrating, that it's actually the failure to activate D1 and D2 receptors that causes rats to give up on hard work. DOPAMINE is responsible for activating these receptors, and it's these receptors that give you the "OOMF" to get up, and get shit done. Historically dopamine is seen as the "reward" but that's not really the case. Dopamine is the fuel. It's the catalyst. It's the "mental energy" that gets you off your ass. So my theory is that, in myself, something is either blocking D1 and D2 receptors... or I've "used up" my dopamine reserves in the brain my continually slamming them with YouTube, gaming, and general computer use. My brain now looks for this high everywhere. Reading a book stands no chance, as it doesn't release anywhere near the dopamine of clicking through YouTube or playing video games. My baseline is fucked, essentially. So, I am going to begin the hard work of reseting this baseline... No YouTube, no Games. Will report back in a few months.

abandonliberty 6y ago

Welcome to maturing. Most people I've talked to have noticed things. The positive part is that experience counts for something.

nabnob 6y ago

Hmm, I've experienced the same thing. My hunch is that this is related to spending long periods of time in front of a computer, with internet addiction gradually making my ability to focus worse and worse. I honestly think I was better at reading difficult material when I was a teenager. I think you just have to retrain your brain to focus in other ways - exercise is shown to improve learning and brain function. There's definitely a relationship between physical health and mental health, and I'm guessing that physical health is an area that a lot of us software devs are neglecting.

stef25 6y ago

I have similar problems. Some of it might be because of underlying issues we'll probably never learn about it, but some of it is also social media and information overload. There's so much shit bombarding us every day, all engineered to provide a dopamine fix and I 100% believe it's affecting our brains.

cmauniada 6y ago
This. I agree with. I have to force myself to only check my phone at certain times, and ensure that I don't use it too often. Ever since I have enabled night mode on my iPhone I find myself less distracted and getting better sleep. I also put apps like instagram, snapchat inside folders on a different page so they are always out of my sight.