This lead me down a rabbit hole of researching to try and understand what it is, if I have it, and really understand what it is not. At first, yes, it matches m

This lead me down a rabbit hole of researching to try and understand what it is, if I have it, and really understand what it is not. At first, yes, it matches me, I see nothing but my eyelids when I close my eyes, because that is the stimulation my eyes are receiving, no different from waking up at night and it's pitch ass black in my room. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eFqJ42oGOM8 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eFqJ42oGOM8 This video gave me a context to what it is not and answered that no, I do not have it. I can mentally visualize my cat, in full vivid description though I see (visually with my eyes) nothing but my eyelids. So to actually see something, to hallucinate vision which does not exist, is not what people normally experience. People can learn to hallucinate and see actual vision when their only visual stimulation is their eyelids, to project what they think visually to the actual sensory input of vision. So as I understand from the few hours of research, if you are unable to describe an object without visually seeing it with your (open) eyes, then you would actually be aphantasiac.