Yep, that is what I'm describing. One of the reasons it took me 10 years to be so opinionated about it is because I didn't want to believe this was the case. F

Yep, that is what I'm describing. One of the reasons it took me 10 years to be so opinionated about it is because I didn't want to believe this was the case. For a very long time I believed that if I thought I would want to do something, then I would go on and do it. But apparently that's not the case. But I did notice if I observe myself and hook into it, then achieving my goals works quite a bit better. It's not perfect, but good enough.