I've tried, please read other reply for details. I've focused on positive things but hard to escape reality when you have noisy neibours who live a vampire lif

I've tried, please read other reply for details. I've focused on positive things but hard to escape reality when you have noisy neibours who live a vampire lifestyle and a flat with the acoustics that I can hear a lightswitch downstairs turned on or off, let alone a raving crackhead. I set up a audio surveillance system with contact mics I built, though took year to afford the parts and then not ideal, but budget so tight I have to buy reduced food items to scrape by. Yet even with that, and case of playing blatant issues to housing and police - they do nothing, hence only way I will get the gravatas this needed is to go public and for that I need help as I'm unable to do this without breaking down and reliving all the bad moments - bad side effect of a good memory and if anything, makes it worse. But focusing only works so far - don't change anything and with everything else health wise, I don't have many good days and when I do, only able to do short bursts before fatigue kicks in or nerve damage pain, let alone the PTSD which can be triggered so easily that i'm totally unable to move forward and all attempts to do that have sadly been detrimental that they have only compounded the issue further.