I've had some short positions (different companies) to offset my own RSU market risk since I started my job a year ago. Until the last few weeks I avoided look

I've had some short positions (different companies) to offset my own RSU market risk since I started my job a year ago. Until the last few weeks I avoided looking. Now I'll avoid checking my company's stock for a while and look at the shorts instead if I want to waste time patting myself on the back.