I think I can empathize. That's why I wanted to stress the fact, that you do those things when you have a time window of feeling good. Always be on the lookout

I think I can empathize. That's why I wanted to stress the fact, that you do those things when you have a time window of feeling good. Always be on the lookout of how to save a little bit of progress for after things will have inevitably turned bad again. If you have a little bit of money, you cannot use that to feel happy, but at least you can use it to make yourself not feel bad about a particular problem. Alternatively, if you do not have money to solve it, consider just throwing away the whole thing and be done with the root cause of that problem.