I think those ruminative philosophical talks can be intellectually stimulating but you need some real world practical experience working in tech. IT can be a br

I think those ruminative philosophical talks can be intellectually stimulating but you need some real world practical experience working in tech. IT can be a broad term, there's helping people with their computers, hardware issues, configuring companies web pages or intranet, software engineering, these are all very different things, you need to clarify what you are getting at. I'm guessing software engineering. Lisp is a great language, however there are far more software jobs using other languages. I suggest you work on some fun toy problems and try programming in a more commercially employable and approachable language, I suggest python. You can do everything on line. There are these self-contained browser programming environments. After you get started you can install software on your own computer, I wouldn't start with that. A quick web search found this page - https://www.learnpython.org/ https://www.learnpython.org/. But there are tons of them. Find one of those, work on something interesting to you and then see if you are interested. There are lots of interesting things in the computer science world, but since you have years of yearning, I suggest narrowing your focus to something that is more direct, assuming employment is your goal. As a beginner with no recent school experience as a dev or employment (apparently), it will be hard to find that first job, but once you have one your resume will get you considered for the next. Good luck!