I had a similar experience to yours. Divorce. Heartache. Depression amplified by..a lot. Tried to get out. Joined a couple of groups on Meetup. Didn't work. Mo

I had a similar experience to yours. Divorce. Heartache. Depression amplified by..a lot. Tried to get out. Joined a couple of groups on Meetup. Didn't work. Moderately enjoyed it. Would get home, then... crash. Back into the spiral. Fast forward a couple of years. In a better place, somewhat. Try again, what the hell I'm bored and can only play so much HZD and BotW. It was surprisingly better this time. Started making friends. Texting. Feels good. Better, at least. So maybe you aren't in a place where that works for you right now. Maybe it will one day. Don't close yourself off to it completely, though. It's helped others, so who knows.