I am not sure about seeking help part, if you feel you are at that stage its most likely time to look for help professionally or call an old friend or familey o

I am not sure about seeking help part, if you feel you are at that stage its most likely time to look for help professionally or call an old friend or familey or something out of the blue. What do you actually like to do? I would #1 delete FB/IG. #2 go for a run or walk #3 eat regularly #4 put yourself out there, do something to level yourself out. Sounds like you are a very up or down type person. You need something to balance that out.