Sounds like you might need some kind of existential experience. Not too get too mystical, but it is a practical matter, the fourth dimension of time might help.

Sounds like you might need some kind of existential experience. Not too get too mystical, but it is a practical matter, the fourth dimension of time might help. I can help to see and feel your life from beginning to end as a single thing. It sounds to me that you're hyper focused on a single aspect of your life and that some perspective will help immeasurably. And if that all sounds like gibberish then I'm totally on the side with everyone else that advised therapy. It'll basically do what I suggested, get perspective. Also, this shit ain't easy. Life is the most difficult thing any of us will do.