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Thanks for helping re-frame the problem. Anxiety is an interesting way of looking at it. I just read the Feynman text you linked, and it was inspiring. When

Thanks for helping re-frame the problem. Anxiety is an interesting way of looking at it. I just read the Feynman text you linked, and it was inspiring. When I started programming, I did it because I enjoyed it. I found it fun. I was just exploring it. Then it became my career... and over the years, it's become more about being good, making money, and being "proud" of my accomplishments. Maybe I need to take a step back, address my anxiety, and get back to playing. Easier said than done, but worth doing.

malux85 7y ago
Having been in this pattern for so long it's also possible you have become addicted to the adrenaline of urgency. It took me a long time to break the "effort and accomplishment is not an unending linear graph", when I finally took the time to stop working so hard, I got a LOT further in life. Like a factor of 5. Income increase, responsibility decrease, and dramatic weight loss. You're going to have to say no to people. If youre agreeable this is hard, but if what you needed was easy, you'd have already dont it right? haha As a hyper industrious (80 hours a week normal) it was very hard for me to make this adjustment, it took about 5 months, and I, like you, had been coding 10 years at the time