I encourage you to speak with a therapist about how you feel. Money is not going to make you happy or proud, comparing yourself to others is a zero-sum game,

I encourage you to speak with a therapist about how you feel. Money is not going to make you happy or proud, comparing yourself to others is a zero-sum game, and living to work comes at a cost. Seriously, find and talk with a professional. How you are feeling now is probably not going to change even if you achieved everything you want.