When I show this kind of behavior it’s usually because of a lack self confidence or depression. My Buddhist teacher told me that depression is literally a selfi

When I show this kind of behavior it’s usually because of a lack self confidence or depression. My Buddhist teacher told me that depression is literally a selfish thing because you are so busy worrying about yourself and don’t have capacity to think about others or to be generous. Besides seeking professional help I think it helps to review the day in the evening and see if you did any of the behaviors you want to improve on. That way you slowly develop awareness and can start catching yourself from time to time when you do it. And be kind to yourself. Changing deeply ingrained behaviors is very hard.