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I had an internal monologue in my youth. Constantly searching for the next witticism in my mind before I said it and putting thought into structuring my words c
by friendlybus 7y ago
I had an internal monologue in my youth. Constantly searching for the next witticism in my mind before I said it and putting thought into structuring my words carefully for school. I later spent some time alone and developed a simulation of other people I could ask and have conversations with in my head.
Then I went to therapy and they told me to stop doing that, so I did. I also worked with people who barely speak english too often and my need for high level english faded. Now I mostly see a battle of ideas and artworks through a misty haze in my mind.
I tried out turning back on the inner monologue and I know I can. I used to have vivid dreams about playing starcraft and that's gone too with the skills. I think you think what is valuable to you.
- sedeki 7y agoI used to refer to this as ”thinking of myself in third person”.
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- ghego1 7y agoWhy did they tell you to stop doing that? What's wrong with it?
- kordlessagain 7y agoIf one builds an internal reality of mind that has others "speaking" in it, as if one has seen them do it, one is allowing one to remove their choice...at least internally. If one repeated what you saw to others, then that could also be spreading the behavior to others, thus removing the choice from target. Shame works this way, for example.
- tagreene92 7y agoCould you rephrase this? I'm interested in your point, but the use of 'one' as an ambiguous pronoun (and contrasted in one phrase with 'you') makes this super difficult to parse?
- derivagral 7y agoI think they're referring to transferring responsibility of thought/action to an "other" in the mind. I assume they were told to stop that style of habit because you don't usually see healthy things from that ("Not my fault, the voices told me to" or similar). Might be a cause of a condition or a symptom of trauma, etc. I am not a shrink
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- friendlybus 7y agoIt was just said & implied to be negative. A lot of therapists will refuse to discuss their diagnosis with you and their methods beyond fairly simple questions. The best clue I got was the diagnosis as an identity crisis. Once you've been through enough psychotherapy you begin to see it's flaws. It's primarily a relationship between two people and I know that for all the descriptive psychological terminology it was mostly her character that guided her advice giving. I think it's something she didn't do or didn't value and passed that on.