I stopped smoking almost a year ago, having smoked heavily (~25/D) from 16-25. Quitting was the best decision of my life so far: I run up stairs without thinkin

I stopped smoking almost a year ago, having smoked heavily (~25/D) from 16-25. Quitting was the best decision of my life so far: I run up stairs without thinking, my senses are sharpened and I generally feel way better than before. But most importantly, I don't have the ffing urge to smoke a cigarette whenever I have five minutes of time, and especially when I don't have those five minutes. I get up in the morning and just drink an espresso, I barely use my balcony anymore. I work in concentrated periods of 2-4 hours, because you know what? That smoking break you need to stay creative, it's of course just a convenient lie to yourself. I go to parties and can stay inside for as long as I want to, and I still get to talk to people. I like to say i woke up and the urge was gone, but that isn't the full truth. The days before I quit I had extreme anxiousness and couldn't sleep, thinking about how much I love life and what plans I have and how I want to have children - and how stupid it is to inhale smoke that kills you and doesn't even taste that good in exchange. I didn't want to die. Next day, halfway through the second one, I noticed they really don't taste good and decided to quit.