First, I am very sorry, especially for the loss of your mother. The answer I am about to suggest works wonders for me, and for lots of people I know, but is no

First, I am very sorry, especially for the loss of your mother. The answer I am about to suggest works wonders for me, and for lots of people I know, but is not for everybody. My answer is to suggest you seek out relief through religion. (Choose wisely, meaning investigate non-radical variants that center on improving world conditions.) Religion is known to have many benefits, including mental health benefits. Good luck to you.