First of all thanks for your honesty here. Sometimes the hardest part is just reaching out. Many of the challenges you've experienced I've also experienced. I'

First of all thanks for your honesty here. Sometimes the hardest part is just reaching out. Many of the challenges you've experienced I've also experienced. I've found that a vacation to a 2nd or 3rd world country for at least 2-3 weeks will help me reset. I think it's a combination of going somewhere I've never been and being able to see people less fortunate who seemingly are happy with much less than what we have here. Death is incredibly difficult for me to accept..and trying to pretend like I'm fine when Im mourning a loss its near impossible. People tend to be understanding to a point but healing is personal and everyone deals with loss differently. I've found that helping others is also incredibly rewarding and useful to reconnect when life has pulled the rug out from other me. No matter what I'm going through there is always someone going through something even more challenging. Even if all I can do is listen to them and share their experience. Sometimes that's all any of us need - someone to empathize with our situation. Finally I add one more thing I've found. I tend to try and avoid pain and have struggled with addiction in the past. Fortunately my last bout of severe depression I used the previous experience and decided to run the Camino de Santiago. I ran the 500+ mile trail from France to the coast of Spain and in a lot of physical discomfort. Most people walk this over the course of a month - I would love to have a chance to do this again with more time. Absolutely life changing and you will make friends from all over the world. Highly recommend trying something uncomfortable -- its an incredible to be able to feel physical pain and yet still be grateful! I hope you find peace and grow from this!