I also have problems not the same but you need to seek professional help if you have a hard time coping. From your post it appears your job is not the problem b

I also have problems not the same but you need to seek professional help if you have a hard time coping. From your post it appears your job is not the problem but outside factors. I also suggest reading "Maybe you should talk to someone". We are rewarded for seeming happy and excited all the time, but often we need people in our life who we can open up to.