That sounds awful. Sorry to hear that. I'm not sure what to say...you've raised so many things. It might be worth spending time with friends, loved ones or a t

That sounds awful. Sorry to hear that. I'm not sure what to say...you've raised so many things. It might be worth spending time with friends, loved ones or a therapist to work through it. One person once said, try and view yourself from outside yourself as a small child. Be compassionate to yourself and love yourself as though you were looking after that child. Go easy on yourself and sometimes it's better to take a break and re-build and come back stronger than possible cause injury by persisting. I've been through some difficult periods and somethings worked for me like: spending time in nature, cutting out the things that caused pain in my life, doing sport and meditating.