Got ADHD diagnosed little over a year ago, at age 30 after dropping college twice, failing tons of classes and having been unable to manage anything. My parent

Got ADHD diagnosed little over a year ago, at age 30 after dropping college twice, failing tons of classes and having been unable to manage anything. My parents absolutely loathe people with mental illnesses and it took me a decade after moving out to get things together enough to visit a doctor for my long lasting depression, which eventually lead me down the path to a diagnosis of ADHD. They required parental interviews which made the doctor rule out ADHD at first, but every single thing my mother reported was a lie, and after contacting estranged grandparents who met me a lot as a kid it was diagnosed. I landed a job as a COBOL developer and spend all free time trying to learn more technologies, but I hate myself for not finishing a degree, which is the only one thing I've always wanted to do, and letting so many people down and never making any friends during my studies because I was always too far behind to dare work together with them. So now I'm in debt from a loan I took years ago to not end up homeless, no degree and crappy work experience from jobs requiring no qualifications, working on legacy tech on a dying project without being able to afford relocating and nothing to show for if applying to more modern tech stack jobs. Now I feel great, started reading and learning things, but I just resent myself from before I got on this medicine that makes me work.