Not everyone has the privilege of living out a bildungsroman/Jungian heroic journey. You're right, you sound like you have all the assets including the desire,

Not everyone has the privilege of living out a bildungsroman/Jungian heroic journey. You're right, you sound like you have all the assets including the desire, but perhaps it's not the same as it's not occurring during your formative years and without peer support. Thankfully, you seem be self-conscious enough to be living your life for your self, instead of with the aim of peddling a brand.