I had to go through this with my wife 2 years ago. I’ll never be the same. It changed me. I was an exuberant person. When we first came to know about the pregna

I had to go through this with my wife 2 years ago. I’ll never be the same. It changed me. I was an exuberant person. When we first came to know about the pregnancy we were so happy but it totally changed my outlook on life after the loss. I did not know how to cope, I developed a deep interest in philosophy and spirituality, spent next 1 year reading and thinking which helped but it changed me as a person. We now have a 10 month old but we did not tell even the close friends ( we live in a different country) until the day of delivery. My blood pressure was 150/90 through the last trimester. I love my son and I know it is supposed to be fun and exciting but but I live in fear.