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I turned 16 recently. I doubt psychedelics treatment is available here legally let alone allowed for underage people. I am still restricted by a lot. I do medi

I turned 16 recently. I doubt psychedelics treatment is available here legally let alone allowed for underage people. I am still restricted by a lot. I do meditate. Making deep meaningful connections is pretty hard if not impossible now. I haven't done it once even when I wasn't this terrible. How am I supposed to do that now?

pmoriarty 7y ago
Wow. You're only 16? Do you know that I hear when you tell me that? Massive, tremendous potential. Almost a volcano of raw potential in front of you. So many things are open to you now, just considering how much time you have left ahead of you (should you not die or become incapacitated, of course). I'm almost at a loss of what to say, because there are just so many possible ways for your life to go now. If you really feel cooped-up in the rural area you're in now, you could try moving to an urban area and try to make it there, no matter how difficult it might be. Some people wind up getting stuck in really miserable and dangerous situations doing that, especially if they try to do that when they're young, but others make it. Really, I would make seeking out and meeting people you resonate with, who you admire and like a top priority. Find people who are your heroes, meet them in person, and get their advice. You might not be able to do that now, but I'd make it a long-term goal. You could also try emailing them or connecting with them through social media. Some people will be glad to help. Also, you could find people adults who are doing good things in your area and talk to them in person and get their advice. Also find your peers who are on the same wavelength as you.. it's easier than ever to do that now on the internet, but see if you can find them in real-life too. I know it's hard. I struggle with it too. But you have a huge advantage in that you're still at a formative stage when you actually have a very good chance of changing both your behavior and your outlook on life. It gets much, much, much harder to do that when you get older and you've lived with the same ossified, fossilized bad habits for decades, and you've been shut in in your own room for 20 years or something. Then the inertia becomes terribly hard to break. You hardly have any of that inertia because of how young you are. You can change for the better. Just, really, try to find good people. Connect. Be open, friendly, helpful. Good things will most likely come of this with time.
- thrwaway69 7y ago
  > Do you know that I hear when you tell me that? Massive, tremendous potential. Almost a volcano of raw potential in front of you. So many things are open to you now, just considering how much time you have left ahead of you (should you not die or become incapacitated, of course). I can paste raw data combining my issues and associated risks/success rate. Future suddenly looks bleak from the comparison. Potential is capped more by location, family, genes, qualification, environment etc than age. High school drop outs suffer more on the long run, especially here. Being born in poverty increases your chance of ending in poverty. Those disorders are associated with short term burn, lower life expectancy, less fulfilment, lower income, higher risk of addiction and 6x increased chance of suicide or early death. My other problems certainly lower the bar even more (different forms of abuse and trauma). If we are being considerate, you would certainly take average as a baseline for your reachable potential. I don't see how that is good at all. Though, it likely doesn't matter. > Really, I would make seeking out and meeting people you resonate with, who you admire and like a top priority. Find people who are your heroes, meet them in person, and get their advice. You might not be able to do that now, but I'd make it a long-term goal. You could also try emailing them or connecting with them through social media. Some people will be glad to help. Also, you could find people adults who are doing good things in your area and talk to them in person and get their advice. I have done that already at least online. I have found some genuine constructive advice like you have added above. I think main issue really comes from facing reality hammer and a terrible exhaustion. Everything needs a positive experience to continue. I lack that spark. Currently, if you asked me what I wished for. You wouldn't get any answer. That is the_root_problem. While extra money is always good and helping, but it doesn't provide big of an incentive to put work at this stage in this form. Other than, I don't really deeply care to want something. Good food? I don't mind bad food at all or lack of it for days. I can certainly live with a blanket without a bed. I don't care if there is a person irl to talk to me either. I have trained myself enough, I can have a conversation with myself using a notebook. I still feel alright at the end of the day. There is no difference whatsoever except bit more irritation. I understand things are not right or optimal but changing them is not possible. I feel like I have already lost by solidifying that position. I am guessing, I might change with some sudden external influence or death of someone eventually.

pmoriarty 7y ago

Wow. You're only 16? Do you know that I hear when you tell me that? Massive, tremendous potential. Almost a volcano of raw potential in front of you. So many things are open to you now, just considering how much time you have left ahead of you (should you not die or become incapacitated, of course). I'm almost at a loss of what to say, because there are just so many possible ways for your life to go now. If you really feel cooped-up in the rural area you're in now, you could try moving to an urban area and try to make it there, no matter how difficult it might be. Some people wind up getting stuck in really miserable and dangerous situations doing that, especially if they try to do that when they're young, but others make it. Really, I would make seeking out and meeting people you resonate with, who you admire and like a top priority. Find people who are your heroes, meet them in person, and get their advice. You might not be able to do that now, but I'd make it a long-term goal. You could also try emailing them or connecting with them through social media. Some people will be glad to help. Also, you could find people adults who are doing good things in your area and talk to them in person and get their advice. Also find your peers who are on the same wavelength as you.. it's easier than ever to do that now on the internet, but see if you can find them in real-life too. I know it's hard. I struggle with it too. But you have a huge advantage in that you're still at a formative stage when you actually have a very good chance of changing both your behavior and your outlook on life. It gets much, much, much harder to do that when you get older and you've lived with the same ossified, fossilized bad habits for decades, and you've been shut in in your own room for 20 years or something. Then the inertia becomes terribly hard to break. You hardly have any of that inertia because of how young you are. You can change for the better. Just, really, try to find good people. Connect. Be open, friendly, helpful. Good things will most likely come of this with time.

thrwaway69 7y ago
> Do you know that I hear when you tell me that? Massive, tremendous potential. Almost a volcano of raw potential in front of you. So many things are open to you now, just considering how much time you have left ahead of you (should you not die or become incapacitated, of course). I can paste raw data combining my issues and associated risks/success rate. Future suddenly looks bleak from the comparison. Potential is capped more by location, family, genes, qualification, environment etc than age. High school drop outs suffer more on the long run, especially here. Being born in poverty increases your chance of ending in poverty. Those disorders are associated with short term burn, lower life expectancy, less fulfilment, lower income, higher risk of addiction and 6x increased chance of suicide or early death. My other problems certainly lower the bar even more (different forms of abuse and trauma). If we are being considerate, you would certainly take average as a baseline for your reachable potential. I don't see how that is good at all. Though, it likely doesn't matter. > Really, I would make seeking out and meeting people you resonate with, who you admire and like a top priority. Find people who are your heroes, meet them in person, and get their advice. You might not be able to do that now, but I'd make it a long-term goal. You could also try emailing them or connecting with them through social media. Some people will be glad to help. Also, you could find people adults who are doing good things in your area and talk to them in person and get their advice. I have done that already at least online. I have found some genuine constructive advice like you have added above. I think main issue really comes from facing reality hammer and a terrible exhaustion. Everything needs a positive experience to continue. I lack that spark. Currently, if you asked me what I wished for. You wouldn't get any answer. That is the_root_problem. While extra money is always good and helping, but it doesn't provide big of an incentive to put work at this stage in this form. Other than, I don't really deeply care to want something. Good food? I don't mind bad food at all or lack of it for days. I can certainly live with a blanket without a bed. I don't care if there is a person irl to talk to me either. I have trained myself enough, I can have a conversation with myself using a notebook. I still feel alright at the end of the day. There is no difference whatsoever except bit more irritation. I understand things are not right or optimal but changing them is not possible. I feel like I have already lost by solidifying that position. I am guessing, I might change with some sudden external influence or death of someone eventually.