I am in no position to give advice, but I hope you find a way forward. I think professional help can still help you, don't give up. I do develop CRUDs for a li

I am in no position to give advice, but I hope you find a way forward. I think professional help can still help you, don't give up. I do develop CRUDs for a living and I like it very much. I call myself a professional software developer without a degree and I am proud that I was able to change careers and become a developer, even if I am no "Google material" nor I will ever use sophisticated algorithms in my work. Just saying that to encourage you to be proud of your skills too. Contractor jobs might be a way to accommodate your needs and avoid the obstacles that depression and anxiety create on getting a regular job. If professional development is a way you do see as a path to make your life "go somewhere", I would encourage you to create a profile on Upwork and spend time applying to jobs (with your experience you will have a lot of options to apply there). Directing your effort to succeed on Upwork might be beneficial beyond the financial reward. I would also encourage you to extend this request for advice to some of your close friends and family. Again, all this is just trying to offer support and encouragement and I sincerely hope you find your way. If you think any of the above advice is valid, feel free to send me an email (on my profile) and we can talk more. Good luck