Hello. I am a man. I cry. And it's not always at the right time or the right amount. I'm a person who buries his feelings, but they can't help but come out. I

Hello. I am a man. I cry. And it's not always at the right time or the right amount. I'm a person who buries his feelings, but they can't help but come out. I used to bury them deeply, and didn't cope with them at all. This was seriously unhealthy and as a result, my mental health suffered. Then I learned how to cope some, and things got better. The more I coped with my feelings instead of burying them, the more I cried. That's not to say I cry all the time, but if a song hits me the right way, or even a good dance routine on World of Dance or some other show catches my heart the right way, I'm crying. Not just weeping, but holding back deep sobs. Those deep sobs are an overreaction, of course. Why do I have to fight deep sobs at something as simple as a touching dance routine? I think it's because I have a LOT going on in my life, some of them quite troubling. Serious health issues in my family which have altered our life significantly, and will cause damage for years to come- for a life time for my daughter and I. My wife is dying and doesn't have much time left. And while I try to be brave for her, she knows how much it troubles me- despite that I have a firm hope for the future and I know it'll all be okay in the end- it still troubles me. For her sake I try to hold back my tears, but this backfires. What was a suppressed weep here and a stifled weep there is suddenly gushing forth right in the middle of a less serious discussion! It's not the right time. Why do these inopportune things happen? Because I've not learned to be okay with crying. If I could manage to be okay with having many smaller sessions of crying, at the right times, then these outbursts of crying wouldn't be there. As it is I hold them back enough that they'll eventually come out in a more dramatic scream sobbing fit that lasts several minutes and usually leaves me without a voice for a week. Weeping isn't manly. Weeping isn't for women. Weeping is for humans. Hello. I am a human. I cry.