> I really really really don't want to commit it without having a clear plan in mind This is the core of your problem. Having commits that show exploratory wor

> I really really really don't want to commit it without having a clear plan in mind This is the core of your problem. Having commits that show exploratory work you've done is useful, especially having a record of paths you went down that you later decided against. Do whatever it takes to change your mindset. Maybe make a toy repo and do a bunch of ridiculous commits to loosen yourself up.