You need to leave. You need to go somewhere else immediately. A small company where your contribution will be necessary enough that you will not be able to do

You need to leave. You need to go somewhere else immediately. A small company where your contribution will be necessary enough that you will not be able to do what you are doing now. This is a very dangerous and destructive behavioral pattern, not unlike what happens with people when they are on government support and don't have to worry about earning a living. It's destructive for you and those around you. Print this in a large font and place it on your monitor and wherever you spend the most time at home: "Your focus determines your reality" (Star Wars, Phantom Menace). There's a great deal of depth in that simple five word sentence.