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I've had that exact feeling of the 'dreadful alternative' of immortality under the influence of (in retrospect) way too much THC. Also, much of the perceived 'p
by gbjw 7y ago
I've had that exact feeling of the 'dreadful alternative' of immortality under the influence of (in retrospect) way too much THC. Also, much of the perceived 'peace' and 'tranquility' some people describe feeling from a perception of being 'connected to everything' manifested the exact opposite feelings in me. All of a sudden I felt completely alone. I do not want to be 'one' with everything because that means there is nothing beyond me.
Perhaps a more positive experience might be one in which you still feel distinct but nevertheless intimately connected with everything. I've done some psilocybin, but never reached anything close to 'ego-death.' I am curious to hear other people's thoughts on how these ego-less experiences make one at peace, and not in complete existential horror (I suppose if there is no ego, there is nothing to 'feel' the horror?).
- idclip 7y agoIt took a while for my horror feelings to subside - my “trip started out as a horror trip actually, i simply at somepoint accepted the possibility of maybe not coming back from this - i went to meditation retreats before taking LSD, and i confronted terrible feelings in what people call “dark night of the soul” - so i was primed for letting go and openning up. You only really need to contemplate it longer, because truthful death awareness, i found, made me appreciate my time better, and the time of those who spend theirs with me. The initial reaction is fear and a terrible thrashing, like a scared child would experience, which is what is at the center of what we think is the adult self. The child never actually “grows”. So it’s ok man, you’ll feel ok about it eventually. PM me if youd like to talk about it
- Chris_Chambers 7y agoPM you? What? How do you PM on this site?