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Same! I had just started getting the phosphenes where I started seeing flashes of light that settled into this wonderful glow that seemed to come from inside my

Same! I had just started getting the phosphenes where I started seeing flashes of light that settled into this wonderful glow that seemed to come from inside my own head coinciding with this wonderful sense of true calm and peace. But then I started to get a bunch of weird head pressure/headaches which started between my eyes and then worked its way all around my head and stuff and eventually worked its way out in some weird emotional outbursts where it felt like I was vomiting up every stale, nuanced variant of sadness and anger I'd ever felt. It would come in waves, feel like I actually had to throw up, and then instead of vomit coming out, my face would contort into an expression of anguish or anger and the emotions would come out. I'm a skeptics skeptic, but man did that shake my belief against all the various spiritual disciplines involving chi, and chakras and all that stuff I had considered total nonsense. Now I consider it at least to be some sort of poorly understood psychosomatic relationship deeply connecting the somatosensory and emotional parts of your brain. Strange and powerful stuff. I did not anticipate that much depth to a meditation practice. I still get a lot of weird muscle cramps in my shoulders when I start to turn on the continuous introspective awareness of my attention. It's nowhere near as bad as it was though. But I also don't sit for more than 30 min. anymore. The whole process was very cathartic but utterly bizarre.

idclip 7y ago
It opens a glorious door into emotional life. Those faces you talked about helped me understand paychological projection, and how what i think someone did, is probably me blaming them for something they didnt do the way i understand it. We are bizzar, and its actually really cool. In vipassana, they tell you to ignore those faces, and scary things (also even the good) - or to Examine them in relaxed acceptance - eventually always going back to the breath, and it helpes the intensity “dissolve” and mellow out. I found out that the twitches and pains i have are produced by a similar mechanism, and sitting long enough with my “fighting emotions” releases them and also releases the pain. Its easier to drink a beer or smoke a joint, so i understand society’s choice.

idclip 7y ago

It opens a glorious door into emotional life. Those faces you talked about helped me understand paychological projection, and how what i think someone did, is probably me blaming them for something they didnt do the way i understand it. We are bizzar, and its actually really cool. In vipassana, they tell you to ignore those faces, and scary things (also even the good) - or to Examine them in relaxed acceptance - eventually always going back to the breath, and it helpes the intensity “dissolve” and mellow out. I found out that the twitches and pains i have are produced by a similar mechanism, and sitting long enough with my “fighting emotions” releases them and also releases the pain. Its easier to drink a beer or smoke a joint, so i understand society’s choice.