Well it was a strongly irrational feeling so it's hard to properly justify but let's say I sensed a kind of arbitrariness in both types of reasons and I was loo

Well it was a strongly irrational feeling so it's hard to properly justify but let's say I sensed a kind of arbitrariness in both types of reasons and I was looking for stuff that was more objective. (An example of how our minds loop from rationality to irrationality without settling on either.)