I'm sorry to read this. I hope you have at this point enough insight to recognize that logically you are more capable that how you feel about yourself. Therefo

I'm sorry to read this. I hope you have at this point enough insight to recognize that logically you are more capable that how you feel about yourself. Therefore, it is a matter of making sense of that feeling of anxiety that you should be addressing. If you speak to the right physician you'll probably be diagnosed with ADHD, and it is driving a large part of your anxiety. You should be careful about strengthening your ability to become more anxious. After all, any neural pathways exercised become stronger with time. Give yourself some quiet time each day where you get to ignore any anxious thoughts that arise. They are junk thoughts at this stage, you can safely ignore them. If you need any more motivation, please recognize your family suffers when you cultivate thoughts like this. Find counter examples and keep reminding yourself of them.