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Yeah. Your not wrong. But you do have a choice. I'm not going to put up with it. Software dev has driven me to the edge of suicide because it has reduced me to

Yeah. Your not wrong. But you do have a choice. I'm not going to put up with it. Software dev has driven me to the edge of suicide because it has reduced me to a coder. And I'm a terrible coder, I'm a very good big thinker, but thinking in the small scale, logic problems of coding? Terrible and yet this is my job as a coder. I can't take it anymore and I am out. I've quit my job and am trying my hardest to get a business analyst role. No luck within the first 2 weeks of looking. I'm not sure I'm going to get anything. But I'm never going back, doing so would probably kill me sooner or later. 14 years into a career :( but I'd rather work construction than this shit.

amenod 7y ago
I am sorry to hear that you bear resentment agains coding, and I wish you all the luck in business analyst (or any other actually) role! The thing is... people do lots of stuff to get by. I'm sure you will find something that you will enjoy in. For me it didn't go that far, and I managed to bounce back to the point where I actively seek jobs that will keep me in development (coding!) instead of steering me towards just management. What helped me was to get some vacation time, then switch the jobs. But most importantly, I started carefully looking for signs of burnout ("Do I enjoy waking up in the morning? Do I look forward to going to work? Am I getting there later and later?"). When you notice the problem in time, it is much easier finding the cause and dealing with it, even if it means changing the job. Also, having a side project where I can get really creative helps. :)
- plutonorm 7y ago
  Thanks for your help. Although I would like to say that everyone I have spoken to about this, throughout my career, has assumed that I'm just going through a period of burn out. I've been unhappy with my career for 10 years and the resentment and discontent has only grown. In fact it was people telling me that I just needed to regroup and watch for burnout that kept me in the job. I listened to people when they assumed the problem was manageable and would go away. But you see, when there is a fundamental disconnect between you and your career, you cant just wish it away. It grows and grows and eats away at you. For me coding is an irritating, depressing, meaningless activity. The only thing that makes it worthwhile is the thing that is being created. But when you are employed as a coder making something worthwhile is not an everyday occurrence. And tbh even if I was building the most meaningful product I could imagine, it's not enough to keep me engaged. Writing code it just too unpleasant. I would have been much better to quit when I first realised that this wasn't for me, rather than wasting a decade of my life trying to convince myself that I could make it work.
  - amenod 7y ago
    Ah, well said, that will teach me to give unsolicited advice to strangers! :) You give very good reasons for quitting and if there is such a basic disconnect between you and the activity of coding, it absolutely makes sense to pursue other career options. I wish you best of luck on your future endeavours, wherever the future might take you!

amenod 7y ago

I am sorry to hear that you bear resentment agains coding, and I wish you all the luck in business analyst (or any other actually) role! The thing is... people do lots of stuff to get by. I'm sure you will find something that you will enjoy in. For me it didn't go that far, and I managed to bounce back to the point where I actively seek jobs that will keep me in development (coding!) instead of steering me towards just management. What helped me was to get some vacation time, then switch the jobs. But most importantly, I started carefully looking for signs of burnout ("Do I enjoy waking up in the morning? Do I look forward to going to work? Am I getting there later and later?"). When you notice the problem in time, it is much easier finding the cause and dealing with it, even if it means changing the job. Also, having a side project where I can get really creative helps. :)

plutonorm 7y ago
Thanks for your help. Although I would like to say that everyone I have spoken to about this, throughout my career, has assumed that I'm just going through a period of burn out. I've been unhappy with my career for 10 years and the resentment and discontent has only grown. In fact it was people telling me that I just needed to regroup and watch for burnout that kept me in the job. I listened to people when they assumed the problem was manageable and would go away. But you see, when there is a fundamental disconnect between you and your career, you cant just wish it away. It grows and grows and eats away at you. For me coding is an irritating, depressing, meaningless activity. The only thing that makes it worthwhile is the thing that is being created. But when you are employed as a coder making something worthwhile is not an everyday occurrence. And tbh even if I was building the most meaningful product I could imagine, it's not enough to keep me engaged. Writing code it just too unpleasant. I would have been much better to quit when I first realised that this wasn't for me, rather than wasting a decade of my life trying to convince myself that I could make it work.
- amenod 7y ago
  Ah, well said, that will teach me to give unsolicited advice to strangers! :) You give very good reasons for quitting and if there is such a basic disconnect between you and the activity of coding, it absolutely makes sense to pursue other career options. I wish you best of luck on your future endeavours, wherever the future might take you!