Its not easy to live openly as a survivor and I still struggle with it: I was repeatedly abused sexually as a child, my adopted mother had sex me when I was 6..

Its not easy to live openly as a survivor and I still struggle with it: I was repeatedly abused sexually as a child, my adopted mother had sex me when I was 6... but that is nothing compared to a sexual assault that I suffered at the hands of a nurse. I won't go into the details; except to say that is was so traumatic I was blind to the scar that she left on my penis (my first real GF asked me how I got it at when I was 18, and even though it was plain as day I never noticed it!). I had no memory of her attack until about 40 years later, and I suffered severe headaches and bloody nightmares those for 40 years. The day I remembered her attack the nightmares ended and I virtually never get any headaches--and when I do, half an aspirin cure's them; they are not the debilitating monsters that formerly haunted me. I know I have PTSD but its not easy to deal with my past... I get nauseous thinking about it (here it comes now in fact) but I'm better than I was before so, we'll keep chipping away at it for now. I have told one doc about this in detail a few years ago and an online chat buddy who was assaulted when she was a girl is a huge help in this.