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I just cannot understand how so many people would find meth enjoyable. It's clearly an epidemic, but why? I take regular old amphetamines for productivity (te

I just cannot understand how so many people would find meth enjoyable. It's clearly an epidemic, but why? I take regular old amphetamines for productivity (technically ADHD), and they're really effective, but not what I would consider a recreational experience. If I take too much, I'll be focused like a laser beam, but I'll forget to eat/drink, dripping in sweat, unable to sleep, and in a really unpleasant headspace when they wear off. It makes me wonder if most meth users are starting out by self-medicating for ADHD and it somehow spirals out of control? I wonder if meth users had access to prescription stimulants if they'd still need more and get addicted. Maybe some people react differently than I do. I'd like to try meth once just to see why it's such a big thing, but Desoxyn is pretty much impossible to come by, and I'm not smoking street meth or cooking my own.

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honkycat 7y ago
I think Joker put it well when it said: "The thing about mental illness is that people expect you to act like you do not have it." I have my own idiom: "If these people could be normal, they would chose to be normal." #1 thing: It feels amazing. Your brain LOVES these drugs. It is like an orgasm mixed with a super Mario star. There are a few routes: The invincibility of youth colliding with brain chemistry of intense drug addiction. Nobody thinks THEY are the one who is going to have a drug problem. They can quit whenever they want to. Until they stop. Self loathing is another path. You hate yourself. You don't care about anything. You actively want to destroy yourself, but the drugs make you feel good for a little while. So you keep doing them. There are obviously more paths than these two. Either way, you end up addicted. Your brain is screaming for more. You are in physical pain. Every bout of depression and hardship, your brain wills you towards your favorite fix. And in a moment of self-loathing or just plain exhaustion, you cave. ___ I am thankful I read the works of William S. Burroughs and Philip K. Dick in my formative years, so I had a stark understanding of which drugs were which, and what happens when you lose control. I have had the same experience with vyvanse. I didn't find it fun, it would just kill my libido and hunger, to the point where it would be 9pm an I would be a grumpy mess from not eating all day. I've always loved this passage from "A Scanner Darkly." It is autobiographical: "Or a horrible positive reason: to have watched a human being you loved deeply, that you had gotten real close to, held and slept with and kissed and worried about and befriended and most of all admired—to see that warm living person burn out from the inside, burn from the heart outward. Until it clicked and clacked like an insect, repeating one sentence again and again. A recording. A closed loop of tape."
miesman 7y ago
I had a friend I grew up with who smoked his life away over a period of a few years. It was really ugly. Funny thing was he was the only one in our group of friends that didn't party that much when we were younger. They say an addict has his drug of choice but maybe the drug really chooses you. It really is a super drug. The Methyl group allows it to cross the blood/brain barrier. Few hits and you are up for days. When it gets ahold of your life people do things like give up their kids to pursue it. You all have heard the stories. Anyway I'm thinking that you wanting to try meth could be a red flag. Or not. But why take the chance?

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honkycat 7y ago

I think Joker put it well when it said: "The thing about mental illness is that people expect you to act like you do not have it." I have my own idiom: "If these people could be normal, they would chose to be normal." #1 thing: It feels amazing. Your brain LOVES these drugs. It is like an orgasm mixed with a super Mario star. There are a few routes: The invincibility of youth colliding with brain chemistry of intense drug addiction. Nobody thinks THEY are the one who is going to have a drug problem. They can quit whenever they want to. Until they stop. Self loathing is another path. You hate yourself. You don't care about anything. You actively want to destroy yourself, but the drugs make you feel good for a little while. So you keep doing them. There are obviously more paths than these two. Either way, you end up addicted. Your brain is screaming for more. You are in physical pain. Every bout of depression and hardship, your brain wills you towards your favorite fix. And in a moment of self-loathing or just plain exhaustion, you cave. ___ I am thankful I read the works of William S. Burroughs and Philip K. Dick in my formative years, so I had a stark understanding of which drugs were which, and what happens when you lose control. I have had the same experience with vyvanse. I didn't find it fun, it would just kill my libido and hunger, to the point where it would be 9pm an I would be a grumpy mess from not eating all day. I've always loved this passage from "A Scanner Darkly." It is autobiographical: "Or a horrible positive reason: to have watched a human being you loved deeply, that you had gotten real close to, held and slept with and kissed and worried about and befriended and most of all admired—to see that warm living person burn out from the inside, burn from the heart outward. Until it clicked and clacked like an insect, repeating one sentence again and again. A recording. A closed loop of tape."

miesman 7y ago

I had a friend I grew up with who smoked his life away over a period of a few years. It was really ugly. Funny thing was he was the only one in our group of friends that didn't party that much when we were younger. They say an addict has his drug of choice but maybe the drug really chooses you. It really is a super drug. The Methyl group allows it to cross the blood/brain barrier. Few hits and you are up for days. When it gets ahold of your life people do things like give up their kids to pursue it. You all have heard the stories. Anyway I'm thinking that you wanting to try meth could be a red flag. Or not. But why take the chance?