I've had sudden fits of anger and anxiety caused by, well, the realization of being alive means, only I don't meditate. You may have inferred causation where th

I've had sudden fits of anger and anxiety caused by, well, the realization of being alive means, only I don't meditate. You may have inferred causation where there is merely correlation: I find it all too likely that the impulses that drive one to take up meditation are the same ones that drive one to consider 'life'... and suffer the consequences of those considerations. I.e. You're just getting older and wiser, with or without meditation.