I'd love to believe it was the right move because I'd love to continue giving this therapist more credit, but I'm not sure. It' might've helped things looking

I'd love to believe it was the right move because I'd love to continue giving this therapist more credit, but I'm not sure. It' might've helped things looking forward, but looking backward I think it wasn't great. As in, "I am so smart and yet thus far have accomplished nothing." So, maybe that's a debt to be paid, and once paid a person is able to move forward at a better trajectory than before? That might make sense to me.