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I think we're very similar. I've been pretty successful in my life (I'm only 29 so there's plenty of time for critical failure), but the way I observe the value

I think we're very similar. I've been pretty successful in my life (I'm only 29 so there's plenty of time for critical failure), but the way I observe the value that I add to my workplace and peers is totally different from what I see others doing. I know that I'm smart, that I'm creative, and that I can solve complex problems. I struggle with a lot of "basic" things, like reading a whole paragraph before diving into solving a (the wrong) problem, or speaking so fast I mix up or jam words together. I also have just a crippling fear of failure, so bad that I just never do anything that really tests my abilities. I failed an Amazon interview 10 years ago and I can't bring myself to give a fair shot to most tech companies. It's also rough knowing as I type these words on this website that they may come back to haunt me, but I suppose in this moment I'm willing to commit to being honest.

caconym_ 7y ago
> I also have just a crippling fear of failure, so bad that I just never do anything that really tests my abilities. I failed an Amazon interview 10 years ago and I can't bring myself to give a fair shot to most tech companies. Let me give you a kick in the ass. You failed an Amazon interview when you were 19? For me, the difference between 19 and 29 was the difference between being a kid with literally zero practical skills, in college but not studying anything with "computer" in the name, and being an adult with the ability to walk into FAANMG^[1] interviews, pass them, and survive mostly-happily in the caustic environments therein. Though it will be work, and you may encounter setbacks, you are ready for your next step. I completely relate to the feeling that despite knowing you are smart, creative, and able to solve complex problems, you're somehow still not good enough to get hired, but it's all in your head. You should not be worrying about whether you can get hired, but rather where you want to get hired, if getting hired is even the thing you really want to do. > It's also rough knowing as I type these words on this website that they may come back to haunt me, but I suppose in this moment I'm willing to commit to being honest. I've found that "being vulnerable" can be an effective tool for building rapport, as long as you don't get too weird. Anyway, I certainly wouldn't worry about anything you've said here. ^[1] Not to say I attach any particular value to these companies, but their interviews are generally accepted to be on the challenging side.
lukevp 7y ago
Hey Alex. I'm starting a YouTube channel where I do mock tech interviews and then provide feedback afterward, the goal is to show everyone what a hiring manager is looking for and to help you see a clearer perspective about how you present during an interview. Is this something you're interested in? I'd love to set you up with one.
- TurkishPoptart 7y ago
  Hi, I'm not Alex but I posted earlier up this comment chain. I'd be interested!

caconym_ 7y ago

> I also have just a crippling fear of failure, so bad that I just never do anything that really tests my abilities. I failed an Amazon interview 10 years ago and I can't bring myself to give a fair shot to most tech companies. Let me give you a kick in the ass. You failed an Amazon interview when you were 19? For me, the difference between 19 and 29 was the difference between being a kid with literally zero practical skills, in college but not studying anything with "computer" in the name, and being an adult with the ability to walk into FAANMG^[1] interviews, pass them, and survive mostly-happily in the caustic environments therein. Though it will be work, and you may encounter setbacks, you are ready for your next step. I completely relate to the feeling that despite knowing you are smart, creative, and able to solve complex problems, you're somehow still not good enough to get hired, but it's all in your head. You should not be worrying about whether you can get hired, but rather where you want to get hired, if getting hired is even the thing you really want to do. > It's also rough knowing as I type these words on this website that they may come back to haunt me, but I suppose in this moment I'm willing to commit to being honest. I've found that "being vulnerable" can be an effective tool for building rapport, as long as you don't get too weird. Anyway, I certainly wouldn't worry about anything you've said here. ^[1] Not to say I attach any particular value to these companies, but their interviews are generally accepted to be on the challenging side.

lukevp 7y ago

Hey Alex. I'm starting a YouTube channel where I do mock tech interviews and then provide feedback afterward, the goal is to show everyone what a hiring manager is looking for and to help you see a clearer perspective about how you present during an interview. Is this something you're interested in? I'd love to set you up with one.

TurkishPoptart 7y ago
Hi, I'm not Alex but I posted earlier up this comment chain. I'd be interested!