Anxiety and depression are terrible issues, I hope you figure out the key for that lock soon. The other side of this is 'lazy as shit' - in terms of psychometr

Anxiety and depression are terrible issues, I hope you figure out the key for that lock soon. The other side of this is 'lazy as shit' - in terms of psychometric measures, you're largely describing conscientiousness, one of the five OCEAN traits. IQ and conscientiousness both correlate with income, but it's their combination that really makes for economic high achievers. Sounds like you have half the triforce, as it were. You may very well be highly intelligent but not conscientious. There are lots of people like this, it's not a sin, just a personality. I will say that conscientiousness is probably more valuable than IQ in many ways, but IQ is nothing to scoff at. Imagine being in the same situation as you, but being dumb as well. >But we grew up in the world told we could do anything we wanted! You can do anything you want. The trick is that 'wanting' here doesn't mean 'I want to have the results of having done that long arduous risky focused effort'. It means 'I want to go through that long arduous risky focused effort'. Most people don't want anything like that, though. To say "You can go to the gym," is not the same as saying, "You're entitled to be jacked." It just means you're allowed to strive.