And I somewhat agree, but at the same time, it feels as if I've missed making prerequisite good memories that most people have and that makes it hard to make go

And I somewhat agree, but at the same time, it feels as if I've missed making prerequisite good memories that most people have and that makes it hard to make good new ones. Without any family or friends it just makes sense to put all my time and effort into takinh my career in a direction I (hope) I'll enjoy so that I can salvage at least some resemblance of satisfaction with life.