Hi, I've got complex PTSD, and my mental state is an issue pretty often. I recently received a warning from my employer because my performance had been slipping

Hi, I've got complex PTSD, and my mental state is an issue pretty often. I recently received a warning from my employer because my performance had been slipping. My anxiety of not working fast enough was causing me to rush my work, but my inability to focus introduced a lot of bugs, which in turn caused issues for my coworkers. It was a big slap in the face for me, because it made me realize that, while my employer is very accommodating, they are still a company, and cant stand for bad performance. At least where i work, they care more about quality than quantity, so in my case, I've been trying to focus my anxiety towards writing tests and test cases, and just generally trying to be as diligent as possible. Another big sticking point for me is staying focused in those 1.5hour + meetings... I still don't have a good answer for that. I have a follow up today to find out if my performance is better, and if i get to keep my job. I hope this doesn't make you more anxious. I more just wanted to let you know that you aren't alone If you're looking into therapy, not every therapist is good at the same things. Look for one who specializes in cognitive behavioural therapy. They'll focus on actually teaching you how to deal with things, instead of just letting you talk through them. It's helped me a lot, but like everything, it takes time and commitment.