I think the best way to convey something you don't know how to say is to put it this way "I don't know the right words to use - so I'll say it directly. I BADL

I think the best way to convey something you don't know how to say is to put it this way "I don't know the right words to use - so I'll say it directly. I BADLY want to keep this job but I even more so can't be 'on call'" .. you can explain to them that for you personally you need separation between work and personal life."