People are motivated in different ways. From this question, I’d characterize a key motive for you is to be competent. Embrace it and get really good at your job

People are motivated in different ways. From this question, I’d characterize a key motive for you is to be competent. Embrace it and get really good at your job. Try to find ways to remind yourself of your fears when you have free time, so that you can devote the time required to practice your craft. Enjoy your progress.