I know what your saying, but I think it's still reversed. What is this "worth" of "calm-energy level"? I like being calm, but I find no rewarding value (aside f

I know what your saying, but I think it's still reversed. What is this "worth" of "calm-energy level"? I like being calm, but I find no rewarding value (aside from a better mood). Instead, what I'm defining is that your sense of calm arises from when you just stop looking to define yourself (and your worth). The calm is a byproduct of feeling more connected between things- which necessitates the awareness of worth to diminish. How can one thing and other thing have worth if they are all the same, interconnected thing? Seeking self-worth is predestined to make you never find it. This is a bit similar with self-love, where love is something you 'allow' to happen (instead of 'giving'). Loving yourself is allowing yourself to be yourself, which is why it's also called self-acceptance.