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I've often wonder what the subtle differences to the human psyche are brought on by the use of medication like this. It's very difficult to imagine that it's so

• TheSpiceIsLife 7y ago
  > feel sometimes there are things that should bother her but don't I’ve found that if I spend enough time with anyone this sorts of disparities become apparent, with or without mind altering drugs.
  • AstralStorm 7y ago
    This thing is more common with opiates though, and with mood stabilizers rather than SSRI. (Especially quietapine, risperidone and haloperidol.) The side effect is commonly called reduced affect (bit different) or dissociated affect/dissociation or emotional detachment. It's for some reason rarely mentioned as a side effect.
• big_chungus 7y ago
  I was always a little freaked out by the idea that taking this sort of thing could turn you into an entirely different person. I'm guessing this is doubly odd for those without some kind of religious basis for the concept of a soul.
  • hackerbabz 7y ago
    If you're struggling and an SSRI is effective for you, I highly doubt this will bother you anymore. You will be too busy living your new life to care.
    • taneq 7y ago
      > ...I highly doubt this will bother you anymore. Because the SSRI stops them from being bothered?
      • hackerbabz 7y ago
        That, and because they will be enjoying their life for what may be the first time. Additionally, we make up stories to justify why we feel bad. If you stop feeling bad, the story goes away. Fear about the meaning of self or soul sounds to me like a story justifying the feelings that an SSRI could save someone from.
  • agar 7y ago
    I've heard others with that same fear, and sadly it stopped them from taking advantage of a medicine that could significantly improve their quality of life. Depression and anxiety, even when mild, can be pernicious in their self-preservation. Self-identifying with a symptom, and avoiding a potential cure because "it could turn you into an entirely different person" by removing that symptom, is often the disease talking. SSRIs don't turn you into a different person. When working properly (i.e., right dose, right med), they simply give you more mental space to deal with and work through problems. Who you become after working through your issues is entirely up to you.
    • jcoffland 7y ago
      > is often the disease talking. Or is your response the drugs talking? I know at least with my addiction to cigarettes in my teens the dependency had some very persuasive mental arguments that kept me at it.
    • saryant 7y ago
      I avoided SSRIs for years based on this fear but after starting lexapro I can safely say I have never felt more free. YMMV of course.
      • mrguyorama 7y ago
        I also struggled with this worry, and also am infinitely better on Lexapro. I still have anxiety, it just doesn't take complete control. I'm not a slave to my anxiety anymore, I can push past it if I really want to do something, something that in the past would have had me utterly paralyzed and broken. It's not even a high dose.
    • big_chungus 7y ago
      > the disease talking This is a remarkably clever way to dismiss those with whom you disagree - "If you don't, that must be the disease talking." As pointed out by jcoffland, the counterpart could be the drugs talking. There is not necessarily a known psychiatric ground state for a given person, so it's difficult to evaluate what's talking, and you'll probably never get a person free of all possible confounding variables. I'm not saying it's not true in some cases, but there are legitimate concerns and it's not reasonable to toss them out. > When working properly (i.e., right dose, right med) This is the no-true-scotsman problem. Theoretically, if you have the _exact_ right dose and the _exact right med_, you'll do better. Problem is that these are very fine-grained meds and it can take years to work through them all and get it exactly right. By that point, you might have changed. Sure, it's possible, but saying, "Oh, if you just had the right dose, it would work better!" isn't a solution. You can't just "get the right dose", even if you move shrinks.
• bbq123r 7y ago
  Your comment made me recall some of how I felt on SSRIs. I went on SSRIs for several months for anxiety. My subjective experience of it was that the thoughts and obsessions that were continually going in my mind increasingly felt like they were coming through a fog and from farther away. Which was great in some ways because I could just enjoy being, but I need to access that obsessive mindset for work as a developer and for my personal projects that I care about. A lot of the time I felt like I just didn't care about stuff that I really should care about. If things were objectively going to hell, I didn't think I would be able to tell, because it kind of silenced or dampened the critical thinking part of my mind. So ultimately I decided to stop... occasionally I want to go back for the serenity it gave me, but I value my critical faculties higher.
• Pfhreak 7y ago
  FWIW, this experience doesn't match everyone's, and personal chemistry and dosages can cause quite different experiences -- where anxiety is present, but managed.
• ssri_user_123 7y ago
  Took sertraline for over year, also tried bupropion, paroxetine, aripiprazole, and others. Sertraline made me feel a bit "numb" overall. Negative things didn't hit me as bad, but positive things also didn't move me as much either. Lithium and aripiprazole given similar effects, but at a much greater magnitude, and much greater side effects (extreme nausea for me). Combined with Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, I think the idea is to have sertraline reduce your latent stress response and to have your doctor / CBT help you establish rational control. Then take out the drugs like you'd take off the training wheels. Though some people stay on sertraline for a long time (perhaps too long?). Sertraline definitely changes your personality on a global level, but the total magnitude of the change appears slight (at least to me). Overall it made me just more blithe in the steady state, for better and for worse. Except during the 2-4 weeks following a dosage ramp-up. Then I actually got increase stress-- dangers felt larger-than-life, and I lost confidence in being able to overcome some physical dangers. It was like the signal-to-noise of the stress response was off. After the 4 weeks, though, that surreality went away. The most objective change for me was in terms of exercise-- all metrics of performance went down at least 10-20%. Dosage increases made me feel like I was recovering from an injury-- my whole cardio felt off. Where sertraline made me feel less productive, bupropion made me feel better, even "good" or "winning" at times. Bupropion gave me little 'micro seizures' at times, though, and my sleep got worse, as if I was taking a ton of caffeine. I think the common notion that anti-depressants magically make you feel better is wrong. Bupropion is close to that notion-- it's technically a bit of an upper. But sertraline is just kind of a nullifier. After the experience, it's clear to me why some of my colleagues in Silicon Valley (even my roommate, now at FANG) take cocaine or adderall. If all you want is the "win" feeling and don't care about the consequences (or think you're bigger than them), uppers make a lot of sense. Sertraline is more for dealing with extreme sadness or threats, like the fear of failure or of violent colleagues.
  • kylek 7y ago
    >> After the experience, it's clear to me why some of my colleagues in Silicon Valley (even my roommate, now at FANG) take cocaine or adderall. Absolutely bonkers that an engineer (I assume?) would think they need to do this to push themselves through the day while working at one of those companies (or really, any company besides his/her own). I always chocked this up to leftover substance addiction from college. I'm a bit interested in this - how would you convinced a coked-up colleague that they're literally killing themself for some faceless company and a load papers with symbols on them? Must they crash and burn first prior to getting off their dopamine-riddled high horse? There are just so many options available now, conventional and not. I strongly feel that anyone who has run though a gamut of SSRIs or otherwise has a substance problem need to give psychedelics like iboga a serious look. (I know, quite a tough sell. One can really only get help if they want it and are willing to make serious changes.)
• pasabagi 7y ago
  I've been on setraline for a few years now, and I've definitely noticed some changes to my personality. I'm also not bothered by stuff that, presumably, I should be bothered by. On the other hand, I think this kind of autonomic response doesn't really define me as a person. For a long time, my main response to anything was 'I hate it and it terrifies me'. That's something I never particularly saw as 'me' either, but it did obviously have its effect on the sort of person I am, the kind of thinking and talking I got used to. These things get threaded into your personality, but I think personality really plays out over a longer timescale. The things that have been constant in the way I do stuff has been constant over a couple of decades of mental illness and different meds, even though the outward appearance, and the internal sensorium, the mindscape, have been radically different at each point. I'm certainly more relaxed than I was, but I don't really see this as different in kind from the differences to the psyche wrought by depression or anxiety. It's a change to who I am, and how I act, but a much smaller, less painful, and ultimately less deep-carving one than living with mental illness.