I think you almost hit the problem on the head but are slightly off mark. I believe you are close with, "But as soon as I work for myself..." But I question wh

I think you almost hit the problem on the head but are slightly off mark. I believe you are close with, "But as soon as I work for myself..." But I question whether or not you are actually "working for yourself". Is this code you're writing for yourself a product that is intended to become a full-time endeavor? If yes, then it makes sense that you'd find yourself frustrated, and it is likely that the quality isn't actually the problem. It's a frustration with not having the bandwidth to work on your own project 100% of your time. You're not financially independent and recognize that you don't have the time to actually deliver the quality and content you'd like to. It is a sense of futility working on something during odd hours that you'd rather spend decompressing from having to deliver quality all day long at a paying job.