Suggestion for ya. Cut out the social media, and... porn. It shifts your mindset in a very negative way, very gradually. I can understand your perspective, and

Suggestion for ya. Cut out the social media, and... porn. It shifts your mindset in a very negative way, very gradually. I can understand your perspective, and warranted frustration. Much of my childhood, I was raised to believe certain truths, only to be slapped in the face by a different reality later in life. @McAtNite mentioned the "red pill/MRA" trap. It's common, to people seeing things that go against what they were raised to believe is 'right' or 'wrong', to become angered by that. Try going to a festival. As a software engineer, I went to Sasquatch Festival in 2017 for the first time, and it was life-changing. I went again to the last one in 2018, and again, life-changing. Incredible music, amazing people, and no "deadlines", or deployment statuses BS. Just people celebrating what it means to be alive. The judgmental side of you will fade over time and you'll come out of it a stronger person.