A lot of difficulty sleeping lately, occasional restless legs don't help. I tend to overcompensate quite a lot (due to an underlying belief of not being good e

A lot of difficulty sleeping lately, occasional restless legs don't help. I tend to overcompensate quite a lot (due to an underlying belief of not being good enough, which of course goes back to childhood and has been the topic of years of therapy) sothe desire to distract myself by working late and getting more done compounds that. Still, putting it into the perspective of the last two or three years it's a slow but steady climb back out of the rabbit hole that was intense depression, dependence on therapy, multiple attempted suicides, an existential crisis after I didn't know who I really was any more, loneliness, moving countries multiple times, and suffering some deep loss. Going from working completely remote, in isolation, and now making it to the office every day and being more outgoing has been a great improvement. There are more people I enjoy spending time with, and I feel really good in their company. It's great to say that I'm more okay now than I was earlier this year, and for those years previously. I certainly wouldn't relive that period by choice but it's getting to the point where I consider it to be character defining as opposed to a shitty series of events. A lot of love, compassion and forgiveness came out of that.